Category: Post Untitled, volume one

THURSDAY, 9 DECEMBER 2004

To impress others in their social and/or professional circles is a daily ambition for many people. What is supposed to create a good impression ranges from property acquired to actions taken, from projects successfully completed to promotion at work, from new people with whom contact has been made to most recent sexual conquests.

There are several reasons why people want to impress others. There is the common, “If they’re impressed with me, they’ll like me, and then I can feel good about myself!” There is also the more cynical ambition of a specific end result to be achieved, and when people are impressed with whatever is dished up, the one who had wanted to create the impression could walk away with new reason to sniff the air. A last example that can be mentioned is sexual needs fulfilment. A target is identified with a cursory exploration of the environment, sentences are conceived and polished by mint-flavoured tongues long before they exit the oral cavity, and general body language and behaviour are modified according to the latest ideas and fashions so that the one in need can appear much stronger, smarter, cooler, and more interesting than can ever be the case in bright daylight.

What impresses the modest writer of these paragraphs? Immune he is not to the shine of a new bicycle a friend has recently acquired. Projects undertaken for personal fulfilment and brought to successful conclusion are also something on which he always likes to voice his opinion – regardless of his knowledge or level of expertise on the subject. Promotions at work that befall people from time to time may occasionally lead to as many as sixty seconds of interesting conversation, and possibly more if the new position requires some creativity, or actions that will be undertaken that will have some real value beyond the financial compensation it will bring to the newly promoted person. Sexual conquests for the sake of employing it the next day to improve self-esteem and to create a more impressive appearance are, in my humble opinion – and I know I run the risk of being accused of simple envy – in bad taste.

[Your turn: With what do you try to impress other people, and what do you want to achieve with that? And what impresses you, and why?]

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MONDAY, 6 DECEMBER 2004

Value and meaning, and the insight of children

Sometimes a quarter of an hour will pass, or a whole hour … maybe a few hours or an entire day when you just react without having any significant experiences or thinking any thoughts that you would consider worth writing down, if you were in the habit of doing so.

What value do these times have? Do they simply ensure continuity in a life that hopefully includes more meaningful moments?

Another question: What does it say about your existence if more significant moments are so irregular that you want to burst into tears when they do occur?

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Judy, a six year-old student in my one class, got up from her desk, walked up to me where I was sitting behind my desk in the front of the classroom and said, “I saw you talking to someone, but I couldn’t see who. Now I see you’re talking to the eraser.”

[And it wasn’t even my eraser …]

TUESDAY, 7 DECEMBER 2004

To move on from place to …

For years I kept saying, “Place, place, place!” Only later did I figure out place is conducive to something – definition of identity. Identity in turn is conducive to something else, namely successful functioning. The latter is, however, not the alpha and omega of human existence. I believe 99 out of every hundred people stop at identity and successful functioning. Very few move beyond that …

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THURSDAY, 2 DECEMBER 2004

If you are overly burdened with instructions on what you may say and what not, where certain things may be said and where not, how you should say things and how you’d better not, if you are under prescript of what vocabulary you may utter and what not, then your speech – the primary way in which most people express their experience of reality – is not free. If you are not freely able to express your experience of reality, or do so only in ways that are prescribed to you, you are not free. And seeing that how you appear to the world is determined to a large extent by the way you express your experience of reality, it ultimately becomes part of WHO YOU ARE. Who you are, is then to a significant degree the result of unfree self-expression. Who you are, is then a result approved by the dictates of a particular time and place.

FRIDAY, 3 DECEMBER 2004

“You’re catching me in anonymity. Now I have to become someone again!” says “Brand” to his friend [O] after the latter confronts him out of the blue where he is standing outside a 7-Eleven, smoking a cigarette.

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[The reader may wonder what the purpose is of the odd notation on lunches and Saturday evening barbeques where the same mysterious young woman is present every time, just as luck will have it. Except for my hope to brighten the text a bit with the idea that I am not a fleshless phantom who spends all day behind his computer or notebook, these pieces of text are inextricably intertwined with a matter more intellectual in nature … RECOGNITION and APPEARANCE.]

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TUESDAY, 30 NOVEMBER 2004

Note I: The WRITER’s complaint

I am in a situation where I have befriended two 25 year-old women, with the view of engaging in romantic adventures with one of the two. My complaint is that I believe I am not appearing as I would like to appear.

As what and who would I like to appear? As … (drum roll) … the Writer.

WEDNESDAY, 1 DECEMBER 2004

Note II: The insight hits

02:40

As long as I remain “unpublished”, I will not get recognition for the most important work I have done over the past ten years, and I will therefore not be able to appear to others (read: to a specific young woman to whom I am attracted) as I see myself.

08:32

In other words, unpublished means no recognition means inaccurate or incomplete appearance.

THURSDAY, 2 DECEMBER 2004

Note III: The insight hits with more impact

“It’s so simple only a genius could have thought of it,” Albert Einstein apparently said of Jean Piaget. What is so simple in my case? The connection between RECOGNITION and APPEARANCE!

I can’t believe it has taken me so long to pick up on this! It also speaks volumes that recognition is something I have always viewed with suspicion, because it says “need” and “other people” and do things so that people think X, Y, or Z of you.

Still, if you do not get recognition for your most important work, you cannot appear as you see yourself. It is so simple you must be stupid to not grasp the importance of this! (And I am known to be slow at the best of times …)

The inevitable follow-up question: For what would you want to get recognition?

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MONDAY, 29 NOVEMBER 2004

Members of different groups look down on the so-called masses. There are those in positions of political power who see the masses as “children” for whom the political leader, as “parent”, should be responsible. Then there are some academic types who look down on the masses as often ignorant about matters not affecting their daily existence. A third example are some rich people who see the masses as petite bourgeoisie who live their small lives in ignorance of how good life can be – provided they are smart enough or lucky enough to break out of their small worlds.

Of course many people have a problem with snobbish individuals or with anyone who look down on their fellow human beings for whatever reason. I believe each case must be judged on its own merits.

There is one case though where contempt slips very smoothly and almost automatically from my mouth and that is for the grown children of some rich people, and the grown children of some politicians. Some of these individuals have done nothing, absolutely fuck-all, to earn their positions in society. They look down on the masses that struggle from day to day, and expect to be respected by the servants who clean up after them and who courteously serve them plates full of exquisite food … of which they did not earn one ounce!

They look down on people lower on the socio-economic scale, and then they have the audacity to expect to be respected by these people. Yet they did nothing to earn their own superior status!

I have nothing but contempt for these people. The politician who looks down on the general public … is a topic for another article. The intellectual who gains superior knowledge and understanding after years of study that distinguishes him or her from the so-called masses, is in a more justifiable position. And I can even say of the rich man or woman who have accumulated their own wealth that they may have worked for years to get where they are, even if significant degrees of luck were probably also on their side.

But the rich man and woman’s children?! The grown children of politicians?! I say if these people want respect, they must work for respect!

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