MONDAY, 29 JANUARY 2007
In the last hour, I had a vision of myself suddenly old, five or so years from now. Tired, not in the mood anymore for messing around or struggling; sitting in a chair, enjoying the view, blanket covering my legs.
I say, if someone looks at my life right now, it may seem peaceful, but a war is raging. And the fact that I am busy winning doesn’t mean it’s getting easier.
MONDAY, 26 FEBRUARY 2007
Natasja G.: Inner strength, and a strong sense of doing the right thing, doing things right, and taking pride in what she does.
TUESDAY, 27 FEBRUARY 2007
A substantial change takes place in a person’s life, and the earth keeps turning without missing a beat. You want to scream, “Hold the ball! Sun, give me a second! Everybody just hang on – I just have a think a while …”
Unfortunately, this is how it happens: breakfast, lunch, dinner, TV, bedtime, breakfast, massive change, lunch, dinner, TV, bedtime, morning, food, TV, night, sleep, breakfast …
SUNDAY, 11 MARCH 2007
“Says who?” and “Who are you?” – the building blocks of my personal ideology.
TUESDAY, 13 MARCH 2007
At times I feel like saying, “Go lie down! Sleep until two o’ clock and watch TV the rest of the day! Assume that you will forever throw obstacles in your own way! Confess! Admit that you’ve failed!”
Then I think of something else – and I cannot but say, “Keep your perspective. My success six months from now and two years from now, and ten years from now will always be rooted in the past twelve months, and the number of years that gave birth to the last twelve months.”
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So time passes. I get up. I switch everything on, open the curtains, work – and fifteen hours later I turn everything off, draw the curtains, and go to sleep. And when I open my eyes again, another two months have gone by.
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